Him

When I see him my heart pounds.
when I hear his voice my heart feels like it's
jumping out my chest.
Why is that?
Why is it that when I see him with his girlfriend I want to cry?
I hate it.
I hate that feeling of wanting to die,
never to see his face again.
Never to look upon him in my dreams or in person once again.
I've had a crush on him since last year but since I have a class with him
I try my best not to stare...
At his smile,at his lips, those eyes....

I just want to forget.

I can't have him so I will try to forget him.As best as I can.

Everything is different

It's different when we see each other.

The atmosphere makes my heart flutter

Your eyes make my heart jump

When you speak it's like an adrenaline rush that I don't want to stop

Everything....

Everything is different.

By: Awkward Rosalee

In a cross roads

Recently , I have been taking a college prep class while working this summer. In the process I've been looking at colleges, receiving catalogs and testing myself for the SAT in October. However, I find myself in a cross road. On the left road I want to become an author and take journalism + communications. On the right I want to become a singer and songwriter. I don't know what to take in college. I love both so much that it's overwhelming. I narrowed down two colleges that I am really focused on : Hampton and Berklee. Berklee has an actual songwriting and music production majors but they don't have any journalism at all.Hampton has journalism/communications and liberal arts. I know, your probably saying Rosalee go to Hampton!! The only thing is I'm not sure if Hampton's courses are better than Berklee's. I am literally in a cross roads. Yep, this is me. Awkward Rosalee.

Teenagers

We, teenagers,are the depiction of heartbreaks,crazy, and uncontrollable rebellion. We live on acronyms like 'Yolo' and 'FML',only to find out that we are the future.Even though we know that we will have to take over we live selfishly in our lives towards our dreams. Everything we do is just for the fun;the moment to last or like me,you do things to tell your children. Truth is, I've never done anything rebellious. I've never had my first kiss, a relationship, or dance on the dance floor . I don't want to be 35 in a 16 year old body. I want to break out of my shell and mark off my bucket list with pride.Yep,this is me. Awkward Rosalee.

Idk

Most of you know this acronym:Idk. Yep,it stands for 'I Don't know'. Apparently, I have no clue what to talk about but this acronym is interesting. How could a person not know about something? We are humans for god sakes! Aren't we supposed to find out things that we don't know about? I know all of us aren't scientist, but have we become too lazy? Too lazy to figure things out on our own. Sadly we depend on technology for everything. I'm not complaining ,I'm just saying. Yep,this is me.Awkward Rosalee.

Things I look forward to in my future

Things I look Forward to

High school graduation
Getting braces off
College
Part-time job
Bachelor's degree
Masters degree
Selling my first novel before I turn 17
Start Making YouTube videos
Eating healthy
Dyeing hair (peach or brown)
Moving out of my parents house
Buying my first apartment+ house
Buying clothes I want to wear
Cartilage piercing.
Signing a recording contract with a music label
Meet all my favorite celebrities
Have my Mom and Dad live in luxury for the rest of their life

Hand Written Letter's

I don't know if I'm the only one who's noticed, What happened to handwritten letters? Everything is based off of technology now and I'm taking matters into my own hands. This month I am writing letters to all my (closest) friends and my favorite teachers. Honestly, I am giving one of them to my crush tomorrow. I've always had crushes from afar, but now I actually get to confess for real. I'm still second guessing if I should do it or not. I really like him but his signals aren't as clear as I wish they would be. If only people actually said what they felt, the world would be much better. Yep, that's me. Awkward Rosalee.