Forbidden love

We are forbidden to be in love,so now we are friends.
However,our emotions still run deep in our veins as if we are lovers.
It is truly complicated, but I have learned to cope with it for the past few months.

What do u do when he doesn't text back?
When he doesn't call you, kik you, or contact you first.
This is the hardest part in a long term forbidden relationship.
Frustration, Suspicion, Trust and love.
I love him to death, but the time is going by and his presence is dwindling from my brain.
I always contact him first, but our dialogue is short beyond compare.
Sometimes , It's hard to  tell if he really cares.
Lately,This is me, Awkward Rosalee

Stressed

I have an 8 slides power point to finish at 11:59 pm. In order to earn my extra credit. Last night, I arrived home late and had to submit an online application for a job. Then I had to do a homework packet for my english. Alot of strees this week. High school sucks!!!
Yep this is me. Awkward Rosalee! :(

Feeling Weird Today

I can't think straight anymore. I'm trying to get over some things ,but I can't. I don't want to. I don't know what to do anymore.

Depression overdrive

Alot has happened since I blogged to all of u. However, In this moment I am sick to the core once again. I am praying for the lost of my bestfriends Aunt and my love that I am forbidden to spend time with. People always said distance makes the heart grow fonder and I beleive it with all my heart. Our time is cut off and is hanging by a thread at this point and time. Emotions are being mixed up and i dont know what to do, but write about it. Due to the incidents that occured I havent written on my blog, but I'm back. Hopefully. Yes,This is me. Awkward Rosalee.

Depression Mode

I feel devastated to the core. All i want to do is curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. Instead, I hold back the tears from my pain of everything that's happening to me. I suffer because I deserve the pain I've inflicted onto myself. Your probably asking yourself, " Why the hell are you torturing yourself?" Honestly, for allot of reasons. I've hurt so many people and lost the one person that makes me happy the most. I desperately want that person back, but i am forbidden to be with them. I feel lost, depressed, and sick to my stomach because nothing is going right. I guess putting on a fake smile works every time. Yep, this is me.Awkward Rosalee.