Depression Mode

I feel devastated to the core. All i want to do is curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. Instead, I hold back the tears from my pain of everything that's happening to me. I suffer because I deserve the pain I've inflicted onto myself. Your probably asking yourself, " Why the hell are you torturing yourself?" Honestly, for allot of reasons. I've hurt so many people and lost the one person that makes me happy the most. I desperately want that person back, but i am forbidden to be with them. I feel lost, depressed, and sick to my stomach because nothing is going right. I guess putting on a fake smile works every time. Yep, this is me.Awkward Rosalee.