Things I look forward to in my future

Things I look Forward to

High school graduation
Getting braces off
College
Part-time job
Bachelor's degree
Masters degree
Selling my first novel before I turn 17
Start Making YouTube videos
Eating healthy
Dyeing hair (peach or brown)
Moving out of my parents house
Buying my first apartment+ house
Buying clothes I want to wear
Cartilage piercing.
Signing a recording contract with a music label
Meet all my favorite celebrities
Have my Mom and Dad live in luxury for the rest of their life

Hand Written Letter's

I don't know if I'm the only one who's noticed, What happened to handwritten letters? Everything is based off of technology now and I'm taking matters into my own hands. This month I am writing letters to all my (closest) friends and my favorite teachers. Honestly, I am giving one of them to my crush tomorrow. I've always had crushes from afar, but now I actually get to confess for real. I'm still second guessing if I should do it or not. I really like him but his signals aren't as clear as I wish they would be. If only people actually said what they felt, the world would be much better. Yep, that's me. Awkward Rosalee.

I am what I am.

I am okay with being myself now. I am no longer looking for people's approval.I look out for myself,family,and friends. I've accepted that I'm clumsy and secretly a hipster. I know have 2 personalities that only certain people see. When I walk near a boy I don't care if he sees me or not. Only my opinions matter to me. Point blank. Yep, that's me. Awkward Rosalee.

I think too much

Have you ever thought about stuff so much that your head might explode? Personally, I over think at the most idiotic things. Sometimes I think I'm abnormal. Whenever I'm at a restaurant, I think about different topics to talk about so that the conversation doesn't become awkward. When I talk to teachers I think about every aspect of myself as they speak to me. "Stand straight, eye contact,listen and nod, listen and nod". Especially when I go to IHOP's. Once I finish my pancakes with one syrup, I feel as if I have to try the rest of them with the rest of my pancakes. I guess it's a mental trick. Think about it, why would they leave so many flavors out? They obviously want me to try them. Yep, this is me. Awkward Rosalee. (: I really miss doing that!hehe!!!

Society is always judgmental

Until I transferred to high school I've never noticed how homophobic children are. They think the most stupidest things are gay :a persons voice,their name,and who they hang out with. I asked my mom why that is and she said " it's because of what their parents taught them". This statement is the bold truth. A lot of adults don't approve with same sex marriage or partners. However,we still have to respect one another and our personnel preferences. No matter what our sexuality is we are humans. Never forget that. Yep, this is me. Awkward Rosalee.

This is me

I am African American.
I am bisexual.
I am in love with Kpop and kdrama's.
I want to live in California and Seattle one day.
I want to become an author and singer/songwriter.
I want to learn korean.
I want to legalize gay marriage.
I want to fall in love.
I want people to accept me.
Only because this is me.

Overthink

Sometimes I overthink everything and forget whats going on around me.For example,this morning I was thinking of whether or not to stick to volley ball or join other clubs when I was supposed to be getting ready for my hair appointment. Things like this keep me unaware of my surroundings. Another thing that's been bothering me is that I care too much about what other people think of me for the past two weeks. I don't know whether or not it comes with puberty but I'm sick about others opinions of me. This weekend I didnt give a second thought about people. If I decide to wear grunge clothes , I will. However I'll have to wait until I move out my Mom's house to  do so. Yep, this is me. Awkward Rosalee.